Shame—Dissolving This Driving Force Behind Addiction Through Mindfulness

By Scott Kiloby, author of Natural Rest for Addiction

One glance at Auguste Rodin’s famous statue Eve After the Fall tells the whole story of how we outwardly manifest our internal feelings of shame. Eve is covering her body and lowering her head as if to say, “Don’t look at me from the outside, for inside I am deeply ashamed of who I am.” Shame is one of those emotions that strikes at the very heart of our identity. Unlike guilt, which is often about feeling bad about something we have done, shame carries negative mental beliefs and corresponding emotions about who we are.

I remember from an early age that shame felt like part of the fabric of my very being. From those first moments of becoming interested in sex to stealing a bit of my dad’s Wild Turkey whiskey to trying tobacco for the first time, I learned that some things have to be kept hidden away from the judgmental eyes of the world. I learned to be addicted by repeatedly returning to the pleasures of substances and activities that helped me cope with feelings that felt overwhelming. Similarly, I learned to be ashamed of those addictions as a way to feel bad about myself. And feeling bad about myself gave me the perfect opportunity to go right back to medicating those shameful feelings. What a vicious cycle! Addiction and shame were inseparable bedfellows for more than thirty years of my life—feeding and fueling each other every step of the way.

I am neither alone nor unique here. The vast majority of clients who participate in treatment at the Kiloby Center for Recovery experience shame as one of the major driving forces behind their insatiable desire to scarf down a box of cookies in one sitting or repeatedly return to the heroin dealer for another hit of oblivion. A new study in Clinical Psychological Science reveals what many of us in the addiction treatment field have known for decades: unresolved shame is a contributing factor to chronic relapsing in addiction.

For those of us experiencing addiction in one form or another, understanding that shame is a major contributing factor to addiction is only half the battle. The more significant question is, How can we resolve shame and therefore begin to truly let go of the addictive substances and activities that are linked to it? Mindfulness is one of the best answers.

With mindfulness, especially if it is somatic based, we have the opportunity to dive deeply into the psychological and emotional imprints of shame in our minds and bodies, and gently and humanely untangle shame’s persistent knots. The great news is that we can do this without any psychoanalysis, because mindfulness uses a different approach altogether. Mindfulness involves recognizing present-moment awareness as the foundation of our experience and gently bringing nonjudgmental and accepting attention to the shame-based thoughts, emotions, and sensations that are buried within our unconscious.

Just learning this skill of mindful, direct attention can resolve quite a lot. But mindfulness affords the opportunity to go even deeper. Because shame is identity based, mindfulness—if done skillfully through self-inquiry—allows us to dismantle the shame-based ego itself, providing an even more profound freedom. Addictions fall away on their own accord, without the need for willpower, when we investigate and dismantle the shame-based ego.

For many, baring their soul in talk therapy or sharing their shameful secrets with a room full of other recovering addicts just isn’t enough to resolve the most deeply rooted shame. That was certainly my experience. I had to find a method of going deeper within myself, to root out all the memories and feelings that kept me leading two lives—the secret, private, addicted “me” that was hiding, lying, and isolating myself from others; and the public façade that presented to everyone else that “all is well.” With mindfulness and self-inquiry, I didn’t have to share anything with anyone. When we are truly ashamed of who we are, it is not so easy to simply share every little dirty secret and shameful memory. Sometimes we have to do some inner processing to relieve ourselves of the heavy burden of shame before we can even open our mouths and share the deepest secrets that have kept us addicted for years.

If you are beginning a mindfulness practice directed at resolving shame, I encourage you to work with someone very skilled at guiding you through the process. This is not for the faint of heart. You may encounter some painful memories and emotions. But diving into these issues with someone who is trained and skilled and can hold the space for you is a path to a depth of freedom that you have never known (and can never know as long as shame runs your life). Watch addictive substances and activities fall away as you watch the thoughts, emotions, and sensations of shame fall away through gentle, direct, skilled mindfulness.

Scott Kiloby is author of Natural Rest for Addiction: A Radical Approach to Recovery Through Mindfulness and Awareness—available now through Non-Duality Press. His other books include The Unfindable Inquiry, Reflections on the One Life, and Living Realization. (To learn more about Scott’s books and his work, check out his Q&A with Non-Duality Press here.)

Scott is co-owner of the Kiloby Center for Recovery in Rancho Mirage, CA, the first addiction treatment center to focus primarily on mindfulness, and co-owner of the Natural Rest House, a detox and residential center in Palm Springs. He is also founder of a worldwide mindfulness training program called the Living Inquiries. For more info, visit

Love: A Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing by Cheryl Abram

There are many alarming things going on in the United States and around the world. The recent presidential election and the United Kingdom’s future withdrawal from the European Union (aka Brexit) are clear evidence of widespread anger, fear, frustration, antagonism, and intolerance of differences. The current wars in Syria, Yemen, the Democratic Republic of Congo, and South Sudan are our ways of choosing between power and human life. (Of course, power is the more valuable.) All this, in addition to news reports of police shootings, senseless death, persistent injustice, massive protests, a polluted ecosystem, and uncaring leadership, is quite disturbing, and many people have various opinions on the causes of the global unrest. One obvious cause that I’ve heard everywhere is lack of love. If we all just loved each other, the world would be a better place, they say. If we’re ever going to live in peace, it’s love that we need. More love is what’s required to bring us together, stop the wars, and repair the environment. We believe that love is the answer, but in reality, love is a wolf in sheep’s clothing—a violent impostor disguised as benevolence, innocence, and the “remedy” for all that ails the world. With deception and judgment as its method and goal, when love is the “solution,” love is also the “problem.”

Our worship and dependence on love as a remedy is not hard to see. Famous quotes are too plentiful to count: “Love conquers all.” “Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.” “Love is the answer.” “All you need is love.” And the list goes on and on, forever and ever, to infinity and beyond. Books, songs, Hallmark cards, movies, plays, movements, projects, and a host of other things all about and related to love are big business in this world. To make it more interesting, there are various types of love, to include philios (brotherly love), eros (sexual desire), and agape (universal love). There is no real difference in these and others. The same way that there are types of precipitation, there are types of love. Whether it rains, snows, or sleets depends on the conditions, but in reality, precipitation is always the combination of two hydrogen atoms and one oxygen (H2O). Similarly, love is always the combination of judgment, self-preservation, and trust. The target we create through judgment—be it a companion, parent, child, pet, or deity—dictates the type of love.

Before I go further, let me clarify this idea of love. Judgment is the senses—my sense of sight, hearing, taste, touch, smell, thoughts, and all the other sensations that my experience is made of. Judgment has nothing to do with a decision. I will take my sensory information and box it really neatly into a label like “husband,” “mother,” or “Cheryl,” but judgment gives me no opportunity to choose. Self-preservation is my need to hold on to and ensure the survival of all my senses—my neatly labeled judgments. Trust is unquestioned confidence in the veracity of my judgment. My judgments are always right. Love only comes into play when I believe that anything can occur outside of my senses.

Target Practice
Hold the gun firmly in your hand. Align the sights of the target. Place the center of the first pad of your trigger finger on the trigger. Gently squeeze the trigger, smoothly, without moving anything else. Every shot should be a surprise.

These are the muffled instructions I hear as my daughter Naomi and I prepare to shoot our targets at the indoor shooting range. The instructor is there with us to ensure our safety and to help us properly execute his instructions. I shoot well, but Naomi does much better than I do. On this range, as I look down the line at various targets, there’s clearly a difference in our skill level.

In life, there is no distinction. We all aim perfectly. In life, none of us ever misses the object on which we set our sights. This is love. Love is the perpetual process of creating a target, aiming, and then squeezing the trigger. Cupid’s bow is a deadly weapon that we all wield. We create the target with judgment, we aim using emotion, and we squeeze the trigger when our targets don’t deliver on their promises.

The promise of a judgment is to remain final. Any deviation from that promise plunges us into unknown territory. Unknowing causes fear, confusion, and violence. When I have loved, defined, understood, and known a man, but I now encounter a man that does not conform to what “man” has promised to be, I respond in a fearful way. The widespread discrimination and violence against the LGBTQI (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer or Questioning, and Intersex) community is “love” in action.

So when we say “Love is the answer,” what are we really saying?

For the Love of Bill
My father had a nickname for me and my two sisters. My oldest sisters were Dot (Darlene) and Mot (Marlene). My nickname was Bill. Bill was my dad’s best friend, who’d died before I was born. My father was the only one who ever called me Bill. I loved my nickname. I loved being Bill. When my father died, “Bill” died, too. The pain involved in the demise of all that I’d made was indescribable. Not only did I lose my fun, talented, and strong father, but I also lost his love of Bill. In Latin, the word parent means “bringing forth.” As a small child, I was the parent of the idea of “father,” and my “child” loved our entire world. Bill was a part of that world—a world made of love.

When judgments fail, we feel the pain. When the promise to continue is not fulfilled, it hurts. When the love we parent, and see as outside of ourselves, dies—when our targets force us to question our unquestionable certainty—we bleed and die emotionally, psychologically, mentally, and sometimes physically.

Our senses feel very stable, strong, and immovable. Who questions the sense of touch or smell? What displaces the sense of sight? Shouldn’t that same strength follow the ideas born of these senses—ideas like kind, mother, beautiful, friend, black, and white? When we seek more love, we seek to make more judgments and create more targets, mistakenly believing that we are adding to our strength, building what’s been torn down, and finding what is not yet here but is desperately needed. What we fail to realize is, when we create our targets, we simultaneously become the bullseye. When we love, we sign our own death certificate. When I love you, and believe those words to be true, I separate myself from myself, then expect that division to make me whole.

The Problem with Love
To be clear, there is nothing right or wrong with the process of love. This process is not better or worse than any other process. Problems tend to arise when we look to love as the solution to problems. Judgment cannot solve the problem of judgment. Social problems like terrorism, racism, and violence; environmental problems like climate change and deforestation; and personal problems like broken relationships and substance abuse all seem to be keeping us from living up to our full potential. Not many would argue with that. However, love is not the answer, and love won’t conquer or drive out a damned thing. Love is never the solution. Why? Because love is never about problems outside of ourselves. Love never even touches problems outside of us. There’s no way to inject love into racism, terrorism, or animal cruelty. How would you do that? Where would you inject it? What tool would you use? How often does it need to happen? Who controls how much or how little love is injected into these problems? Love is only ever about the subject; it’s about me. We think we can use love to bring what’s separate together. We think love will unite that which has been put asunder. Love does nothing but deceive the subject (me) into believing that it can be dismembered—and that it is, therefore, in need of repair.

The instant we declare to our wives, husbands, children, parents, gods, and pets that we love them, we have hidden ourselves in benevolent, innocent, sheep’s clothing and have become a voracious wolf looking to gain something from the object of our affection. Love is never truly unconditional. What we consider unconditional depends on there being an object or something to love unconditionally. The question “Do you love me?” really means, “To what extent can I trust you to keep me safe? To what extent can I depend on you, my love, to safeguard my judgments? How long will you keep me whole?”

Trust in our targets to always remain the same, preserve our existence, and forever keep us safe and whole is an exercise in futility. My ideas of family, body, and money cannot fulfill those promises. We won’t see this until we examine what we’re doing when we say “I love you.” There actually is no lack of love in this world. We are saturated with love already. The world is love. Brexit is love. The war in Sudan is love, just as times of peace and unity are also love. It is absence of love—of judgment and expectation—that we want but are terrified of. It’s whatever love isn’t that we also seek, but we fear loss of the love we’ve made. Where self-preservation is not present, we call those individuals “zombies.” Where trust in an object is not present, we call those people “psychotic.” Where the ability to judge is not present, we call that “instinct.” Where love is not present, we call those acts “evil.” But all of those are still judgments. We have no idea what love is, so we’ve manufactured something to be afraid of.

What is Love?
I remember standing in my kitchen one morning, preparing to fry an egg for my breakfast. I placed a small pan onto the hot burner on the stove, added a pat of butter to the pan, and waited for the butter to melt. I then poured in the one egg I’d already cracked and quickly whisked with a fork. The burner was on low, so I stood there and watched the egg slowly begin to cook. As I watched, the egg began to glow a little. Damn, I put a lot of butter in this pan. Then it began to sparkle and come “alive” somehow. By “alive” I mean, the egg was its own autonomous, individual self with no dependence on anything. That egg was everything that ever was. I placed the fork in the pan and moved the egg around, and I could see that as I moved it, the egg was being born right then and there. The egg was being created right there in the pan! This was not the same egg I’d whisked a few minutes ago, then poured into a pan of hot butter. This was a new egg, and in every moment it was new, again and again and again. I began to giggle, because what I was seeing was the funniest, most fascinating and unbelievable thing I’d ever seen. This sparkling, brand-new, pristine egg was actually being created right in front of my eyes…from absolutely nothing at all, and for no reason at all. My giggling became almost uncontrollable. The joy, amazement, and laughter I felt at such unexpected entertainment was indescribable. I was too amazed by what was present to have time to label what I saw. It could have been an egg, but I really didn’t care and it really didn’t matter. There was no desire to get anything from what I was experiencing. I did not want or expect anything from this living, organic process in my pan. There was just wonder and attention while it was there; and when it was gone, I didn’t lose anything because I’d never gained anything. Its presence and absence had no impact on me.

I don’t know what love is, but giving myself permission to allow more context into my limited perspective and judgment of myself as a black woman with four children has helped clear the fog of language, tradition, culture, and fear that has defined love for me. While I hug my children, cry when a loved one dies, and express my deep love and affection for my spouse, god, pets, and parents, I also see that I have no idea what love is. This means that nothing is outside of my senses. A label does not distance me from what I see, hear, feel, think, smell, or taste. There is nothing to repair, because nothing is broken. I don’t need to deceive myself any longer.

Literary theorist Kenneth Burke said, “A way of seeing is also a way of not seeing.” My sight, while it reveals the colors of this world, also blinds me to what I cannot see. Sight is blinding, and so is love. If I love and know you, you are a means to an end, and it doesn’t matter if that love is seen as altruistic and good or selfish and evil. In both cases, it is my own judgment, safety, and life that are most important.

I cannot address my racist and misogynistic behavior against those I see as separate and different from me until I look at why I have the need to see them as distant and different. Why do I need to know and love them? I cannot be authentic with you until I see the innocent, sheeplike mask I’ve donned, then take responsibility for my wolflike, predatory behavior. Only then can I get out of my own way and live.

The phrase “a wolf in sheep’s clothing” simply suggests that this “love” we claim to know may not be what we believe it is. It’s a call to investigate, question, and doubt our idea of what love is—not to create a “better” answer, but to remain at the question and just allow our differences to naturally interact, respond, and evolve. “Love is the answer” becomes questionable when we don’t know what love is. Maybe we can create a new line of greeting cards that ask questions like “Is love the answer?” “Is love what I feel?” and “Forget love, let’s fall into the unknown?” Willingness and courage to doubt the absolute truth of our world is a narrative whose time has come.

When the “solution” for the world is gone, the “problem” of the world is not too far behind.

Cheryl Abram is a writer, public speaker, and mother of four. The author of Firing God and Tales From Eternity: Armageddon, Orgasms, Kittens and Gravity…Fun and Entertaining Pointers to Truth, she spoke at the 2016 Science and Nonduality Conference (SAND 2016) in San Jose, CA. Cheryl lives in Northern Virginia. Learn more at her website:

Q&A: Scott Kiloby, Author of The Unfindable Inquiry

New this month, Non-Duality Press presents The Unfindable Inquiry, the latest book from Scott Kiloby—a noted author, teacher, and international speaker on non-dual wisdom and mindfulness as it applies to addiction, depression, anxiety, and trauma. Kiloby is COO of MyLife Recovery Centers, an addiction treatment program that provides the innovative Naltrexone Implant. He is also founder of a worldwide community of Living Inquiries facilitators, and cofounder and CEO of the Kiloby Center for Recovery in Rancho Mirage, CA, the first addiction, anxiety, and depression treatment center to focus primarily on mindfulness. His other books include Reflections of the One Life, Living Realization, and the forthcoming Natural Rest for Addiction.

What does non-duality mean to you?

Historically, non-duality refers to “not two,” or seeing through the illusory separation (duality) in life. Although I like that definition, there is a more accessible way of talking about non-duality. When we are thinking, our thoughts are dividing up reality into “this” and “that.” Thoughts make it appear that reality is a fragmented collection of separate things. As we begin to investigate thought (through witnessing or inquiry) and recognize the awareness to which all those thoughts are appearing, we begin to see that they are just thoughts. They don’t really point to separate things. They just arise and fall to awareness. Eventually, in a non-dual recognition, the mind begins to quiet and we experience non-conceptual presence as the foundation of our experience. In that presence, when no thoughts are arising, increasingly reality is seen as undivided. Embodiment is an important component of non-dual recognition, in my view. It happens as we begin to include (in our witnessing or inquiry) the emotions and sensations that are stuck to thoughts. When an emotion or sensation is stuck to a thought, the thought seems more true or real. It seems to really point to a separate self and separate things. As these emotions or sensations are allowed to be, they are seen to come and go. They unglue themselves from thoughts, making thoughts seem less true or real.

How did you find non-duality, and when did you begin integrating it into your work?

Once I stopped abusing painkillers (which lasted for over fifteen years), I went on a mad search to find whatever was out there in the world that would help me deal with the thoughts and emotions I had been running from and trying to manage with the painkillers. I looked at every religion and as many therapies and positive-thinking strategies as I could find. Instantly, I saw the wisdom of non-duality when I first began to read about it. There was no “work” of mine at first. The work came from the realizations and insights I was having in my own life. I just wanted to share them. That sharing became my “work” over time.

Your message on is “Rest. Inquire. Enjoy Life.”—can you explain what that means?

Yes, it sums up my teaching completely, and it’s about going as deep as you can go as well as maintaining balance in your life. “Rest” refers to resting as awareness and allowing all thoughts, emotions, and sensations to be noticed and allowed, which also reveals that they are temporary arisings to awareness. Although this practice is foundational to my work and many other non-dual teachings, it often doesn’t go far enough to truly help people see through the illusion of separation. That’s where “Inquire” comes in. Here, I’m specifically referring to the Living Inquiries, which were developed by me and my team of facilitators. They can be found at My new book, The Unfindable Inquiry: One Simple Tool to Overcome Feelings of Unworthiness and Find Inner Peace, is an instruction book on the Unfindable Inquiry, which is the basis for all the Living Inquiries. Inquiry is so important to help us see through the stickiest and most dense aspects of our belief in being a separate self, and in separation generally. They help undo what I call the “Velcro Effect,” which—as I explained above—is the experience of emotions and sensations being stuck to thoughts. “Enjoy Life” is about the balance. These kinds of teachings are not about obsessing on rest, awareness, inquiry, or spirituality. What’s the purpose of a teaching or method if it does not free you up to experience a greater enjoyment, ease, creativity, and enthusiasm for life? As we rest and inquire, our capacity to take ourselves less seriously allows us to enjoy life more, in whatever way that shows up for each of us.

What are the Living Inquiries, and how were they developed?

I developed the Unfindable Inquiry (UI) in 2008 during a period in which I was experiencing a core deficiency story that had remained after my awakening experience in 2007. The core deficiency story was “I am unlovable.” Recognizing awareness was not enough. I needed a more potent tool. Through my extensive conversations with Greg Goode—who I consider both a friend and one of my greatest teachers—I developed the Unfindable Inquiry as a way to see through this very deeply rooted aspect of my ego, which was created in part through trauma as a result of being bullied for being gay when I was in elementary school. The UI was the only thing that really helped. I stopped reading non-duality books at that point. I needed something more penetrative and direct.

After developing the UI, I began to train others to be facilitators of it. Eventually, I and that team of facilitators—including Fiona Robertson, Colette Kelso, and Julianne Eanniello—developed the Compulsion Inquiry (for addiction) and the Anxiety Inquiry (for trauma and anxiety). Each of these together assist in investigating the three forms of suffering discussed in Buddhism (fear, desire, and ignorance of the nature of reality).

There is now a worldwide Living Inquiries facilitator training program including around 100 facilitators who use this work in 12 different countries. The work is also used at the Kiloby Center for Recovery and is being brought into various other treatment centers across the United States.

Are the Living Inquiries for everyone?

They are not for people who believe that non-dual teachings are about learning a lot of knowledge about the teachings and being an expert on them. They are for people who know that knowledge does not bring freedom. The Inquiries are experiential. They are perfect for people who are no longer interested in just reading about non-duality and who want to actually investigate the nature of reality and their own limiting beliefs. The Inquiries, alone, are not sufficient to deal with some mental illnesses, like schizophrenia. Medication is often needed in that case. But inquiry can help once someone is stabilized.

You cofounded the Kiloby Center for Recover (—how did that come about?

I was traveling the world giving talks, workshops, and seminars, and I was approached by a gracious investor who wanted to bring my work, Natural Rest for Addiction, into a treatment center. I already had the idea years ago, but this investment made it happen. The Kiloby Center is truly a labor of love. It’s exactly where I eventually wanted to take my work—into the trenches where people are suffering with addiction, trauma, anxiety, and depression. That dream came true.

What is Natural Rest?

Natural Rest is just a phrase referring to restful non-dual awareness and seeing that everything comes and goes (all thoughts, emotions, and sensations), and that none of them are me. The rest is natural because it’s already in the here and now. We don’t have to take medication or do anything other than notice it.

The Kiloby Center offers an alternative to the 12-step approach to recovery—what makes your program different, and how might it complement the 12-step approach?

Many of our clients do participate in 12-step programs in addition to our work. Both the 12 steps and my work are about spiritual awakening. However, non-duality, in my view, is a much more effective way of experiencing a true spiritual awakening. After being in the 12 steps for several years in my own recovery, I had to leave, noticing that the spiritual awakening really wasn’t happening.

The Kiloby Center is the first mindfulness-based treatment center in the United States. That’s what makes it unique.

Some people see non-duality as an invitation to avoid taking action, such as seeking help—what would you say to people who suggest that because there is no separate person or doer, there is no need for a program like yours?

It’s not that simple. With the exception of a very rare few, most people don’t actually just see there is no separate self and then never need to investigate or seek help again. Life is fluid, and the body and mind store all kinds of unconscious material that keep the ego in place and keep addiction, trauma, and anxiety in place on some level, even after a spiritual awakening. My work is about investigating as deeply as one can into this unconscious material. Usually, after people do this work for a while, they never say again, “There is no self and therefore nothing to investigate.” They have investigated. They see that there is no end to the depth of freedom. Also, those who say, “There is no self,” are often only getting that on an intellectual level. They haven’t truly experienced that in the deepest and most profound ways. The few people whom I have met that have truly gone that deep do not say those things. “There is no self” can also be a way to bypass real issues that people avoid looking at. In the end, there is no self. That’s true. But it isn’t the final realization. Even that falls away… We then find ourselves back in life (having never left), but more engaged and freer to be, move, and act in the world in compassionate, selfless, and loving ways. At that point, we have seen that even self versus no-self is a duality. That is also seen through with the Inquiries.

What support can the Living Inquiries and Natural Rest offer for the family, friends, and significant others of people recovering from addiction?

The Kiloby Center has a family program run by senior facilitators Kay Vogt (who is also a psychologist) and Lynn Fraser. Family members of clients at the Kiloby Center participate in that program. But it is open to any families struggling with family members who are addicted. I cannot emphasize enough how important and vital it is for family members to heal—not just the addicted person.

Your first book with Non-Duality Press was Reflections of the One Life—what inspired that book?

There was very little thought put into it. As with all of my books, the inspiration just arose. Every morning I felt drawn to writing a daily reflection. I did that for a year, and that book is the result. I was in the midst of many insights coming up. I wanted to write them down. That’s all.

In Living Realization, your second book with Non-Duality Press, you describe Living Realization as “nothing short of a love affair with life”—can you tell me more about that?

People don’t love themselves generally. They carry core deficiency stories such as “I’m not good enough,” “I’m unsafe,” or “I’m unimportant.” When you don’t love yourself, you cannot truly love others or love life. Using the Unfindable Inquiry, which was first introduced in my book Living Realization, you can investigate these core deficiency stories—which lie at the heart of the feeling of separation—and come to see through them. But Living Realization is mostly focused on presenting a very accessible way of recognizing non-dual awareness as the foundation of experience, then allowing all thoughts, emotions, and sensations to be as they are, and no longer identifying with them. As you begin to accept, allow, and love whatever is arising (even pain), you essentially fall deeper into that realization, like falling in love. But this is not the romantic love that we all know. It’s an unconditional openness toward experience itself. For example, as a painful emotion arises, you allow it to be just as it is (by undoing the Velcroed thoughts associated with it). You allow it, without trying to change or get rid of it. That is the openness. Because life is really the experience of whatever is arising, that’s how you fall in love with life. You fall in love with experience itself as it arises in the moment.

What was the motivation for your new book, The Unfindable Inquiry?

I just wanted to let others know how the Unfindable Inquiry works. The best way to do that was to put it in book form, complete with examples from sessions with people where I used the UI to guide them to see through the darkest and most painful aspects of their experience.

The Unfindable Inquiry presents both the Boomerang Inquiry and the Panorama Inquiry as relationship inquiries—how can these help people struggling in relationship?

The Unfindable Inquiry is the basic inquiry we use in the Living Inquiries. The Boomerang Inquiry is a way of seeing how another person reflects back a certain ego-based story, usually a story of deficiency. The Panorama Inquiry is a way of seeing how multiple people mirror back the same story to you. Once you really begin to see how all relationship is mirroring back your identity, you can use the UI to see through that identity. This results in less triggers, more harmony, and peace in relationship. It’s like cleaning a lens through which you’ve been seeing yourself, others, and the world. As the lens is cleaned, relationships are no longer as painful as they were before and can even be quite easeful, loving, and compassionate.

What’s next for you?

I have recently been hired as the COO of MyLife Recovery Centers. MyLife has the patent for the Naltrexone Implant, an amazing new medicine that greatly reduces or eliminates cravings for alcohol and opiates for many months. The implant really helps people focus on our work at the Center, rather than on the drug. MyLife has asked the Kiloby Center to develop its behavioral health program across the United States. It’s very exciting.

Check out The Unfindable Inquiry—available now!—and look for Natural Rest for Addiction, coming this May from Non-Duality Press.